Depression, Help Please?
Question by Beth: depression, help please?
Okay well first off, I have depression. I’m not one of those kids who go around saying “oh i have depression” but haven’t been clinically diagnosed. I have been. I saw a therapist but then i stopped because my parents thought it wasn’t helping me. I’ve been taking medication but it hasn’t been helping so i’m going back to a therapy. The weird thing is, when i’m with my friends, i’m happy. I feel fine. But when i get home, when i talk to my parents, when i’m with my family, i feel aweful. I feel disgusted. I feel so aweful. I don’t understand. Why is this? Why do I feel fine around my friends but really sad around my parents and siblings. I have been having many thoughts about suicide. I used to self harm, and when my dad found out he started screaming at me. I spend a lot of time alone in my room and my dad screams at me for not having a life. They stress me out so much. I have also been having many thoughts and highly considering smoking weed. I have smoked nutmeg before (stupid i know) but never drugs. My parents have always stressed never to do drugs, and i have always never even considered it until now. I just want to feel happy, and that’s what my friends said being high is like. I just want to feel relaxed. The minute i start talking to my parents or set foot in my house i just feel a heavy tension. My parents aren’t divorced or anything, they don’t fight but i just feel so aweful. I have been a true believer in God my whole life, but i don’t think i believe anymore. My parents are huge christians, I feel myself becoming an atheist. Last year i was a straight A student and now i’m failing classes. I just want to feel happy. Even just for a little. I don’t care about anything anymore. I’m just so done. I need help. Please someone give me advice.
Best answer:
Answer by sharleen
Beth,
I myself have struggled with depression anxiety and OCD since I was 13 years old. I made many mistakes by harming myself and even attempting to take my own life. Believe me when I say… all good things come in time. You need to tell your parents your feelings and fears if they don’t back off. You need to stay on track in school though. Don’t let this pull you down. Rise above with the help of your therapist, medication, and family. There will be dark times ahead, but just know the light will always shine through! Don’t pull away from the lord..He knows your struggles. Find solace in knowing you are never alone! Ask for serious help hunny. Maybe a clinic to go to for a few weeks. Talk to your parents about your dark thoughts…if they don’t help go to your church and ask them for a program to help you. I help this helped you a little.
Answer by nanasuzy
Don’t smoke weed first off. It is a depressive and will just increase your depression. Sounds like you are trying to get help. If your stressing at home, seems that is where your problem lies. Possibly family therapy would be more beneficial. Your parents would understand where your coming from and vise versa. A strict christian family can be very stressing and demanding, I know, I have been there. Please don’t let a temporary situation, and yes this is temporary, cause you to do something so permanent as suicide. Talk to someone, therapist, close family member, hotline, counselor, Use christian values to get your parents to understand. Your life is precious and valuable,