How Bad, Truly, Is This “abuse”?

Question by Rachel O: How bad, truly, is this “abuse”?
This is a genuine question, this isn’t one of those questions like “Am I ugly?” and expect a whole lot of “No, You’re SOO pretty”
So, when I was young, 8 is the earliest I can remember, my mother used to say “Let’s slit our wrists together. We’ll go up the vein so they can’t save us.” My dad confirmed yesterday that she used to say this A LOT, especially when she was drunk, which was quite often (I don’t know why he didn’t stop it though). And when I was 11 my mom took me to see this drug dealer with her and we bought pot and smoked it outside of my house and I remember her laughing at me because I didn’t know how to draw, I was just bum-puffing. But yeah, my friend believes I have extremely low self-worth, and I don’t see a lot of bad things that happen to me (rape) as that bad because of. So how bad is it? I mean in my opinion, it is not nice, but it’s not like REALLY bad or nothing, and some people on here seemed shocked by what she did (this is not a repeat question btw)
Oh, people always seem to wonder how long ago this happened. It happened until I was thirteen, which is when she didn’t want me anymore, because I was making her boyfriend (who she cheated on my dad with) uncomfortable and I was putting a strain on her partying. And I am 17, turning 18 in September. I know, this stuff really shouldn’t affect me still. But it does sometimes.
Don’t get me wrong I am a success story, most of the time. I made my teacher cry because I told her about all the things I have been through (not just my mom) and yet I was the happiest student she’s had.

Best answer:

Answer by bluekrys20
I think you should have posted in Mental health but your mom has caused you some pain. You need counseling

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