I Can’t Sleep This Is Driving Me Crazy Please HELP Me I Am in DESPERATE Need of Help?
Question by Your Nightmare: I can’t sleep this is driving me crazy please HELP me I am in DESPERATE need of help?
Technically I am affiliated by being born into a gang (I will not mention the name). Grew up with everything a former member can teach you. My father was not at any top of the gang. The gang went no where and no longer exists. I cannot get off my mind restarting the gang. I know how a gang runs to an extent except for what differs from one gang to another. I know how to deal. I know how to street fight. I know more then that, let’s leave it at that.
I know how to teach anyone these things. I cannot with my conscious be held responsible for taking another living beings life. That is not my place or right. At all. I can’t take someone else’s life or have someone else take someone’s life under my instruction/ consent, etc. Jail time worries me. All I can think about is how I can restart this former gang. To every last detail. I am against gangs for taking others lives and certain gangs for harming me. But I also go with live and let live. (the saying)
This is making me feel horrible for wanting to start a gang because I was so against it for so long but there are aspects within how gangs work I greatly appreciate. No I am not a troll, I am a troubled mind that needs to get sleep!
How do I get myself to stop thinking about it? I know people who can make things happen. I’m worried about me doing it myself, jail to an extent but when it comes down to it quite a bit, I’m worried about careless people who would kill others or get caught, I don’t even know why this is even going through my head! I want family, I want respect, I want money, I want love, I want happiness, I want drugs, I want my life to change, I want to be around people who are accepting, I want physical protection and be able to offer it, and I cannot believe I am actually writing this.
Please help me figure out ways to get my OCD to stop looping, tools so I can not think about it because I am seriously considering it, please tell me what you think I need and I am coming from a point of I don’t know what the f**k to do. I try hard to ignore and get away from the thoughts. I don’t believe I am a heartless cold person. I have a conscious. I am really asking what do I do!
I need your help. What do you think is best for me to do? And I’m coming from a serious, clueless, scared, in need of help position. Please serious answers.
Yes I have posted this a lot. I need help!! I need better answers. My father is a psychiatrically written down Sociopath. Am I more like him then I think? Has drug use really f**ked my brain up? (didn’t put that in the other question) Am I having just horrible intrusive thoughts because I have bad OCD? What’s wrong with me? What can I do to sleep!
I still can’t sleep. I want to use. I feel like I am going f**king insane. Drugs and gangs is all around me. Always a problem and I have moved before. Made things worse =) Is maybe why I am having such intrusive thoughts that right now are overpowering my life and making me really consider doing this? I have a conscious, I cannot with my own well being live if I know I took another life or was responsible but at the flip side there are certain types of people I think deserve to die but at that flip side that is not my position or my right
Is this a bunch of white people answering or foreigners or both who give these answers. Know how to read or didn’t they not teach you that in China? F**k it no one is help. No one is there. No one knows how to even read. Are you all white or all women or a scary combination of the 2? Oh yeah with being raised with constant gang s**t, constant drug s**t, constant money s**t and oh yeah as you white folks may call it prejudice or racist ways. Thanks for no help.
Best answer:
Answer by threeplusonedollarbills
Maybe you should seek professional assistance; see a psycriatrist a few times.
Answer by Luis Nieves
Just forget about the damn gang.