Question by Aaron: I feel like I have a bipolar disorder along with depression and anxiety but want to join the military?
I haven’t seen a psychologist because Im scared that If I do there going to try and out me on all kinds of meds and I won’t be able to join the Navy which has been the next step in my life when I graduate high school in a few weeks and that’s pretty much the only thing I have going for me right now I never did very well in school so I don’t see much of a chance for a scholarship and both my parents are addicts so they have no income to put me through school “this also put’s a great deal of stress on me” I went to a Psychologist about a year ago and he determined that I was Bipolar after one visit and wanted to have me evaluated and stay over night at a hospital for evaluation I said no. Im not crazy I just have trouble coping with life alot of the time if i went into the navy I know I could do my job flawlessly and I pose no threat to anyone But this internal conflict is ripping me apart. Ive been smoking weed for about a year and a half everyday I stopped about a week ago wondering if it could be the source or a major factor of my problem Im hoping that this will just all go away and i will just grow out of it. I just want to be normal and happy instead of wanting to kill myself one second and having to self esteem to the most confident man to sad then to crying for no reason at all. My bottom line question is should i seek treatment now and possibly throw off the only chance I know of to having a sucessful future and breaking my familys cycle of stupidity and drug abuse “BTW First to Graduate in my family and Im excited!” or should I continue ahead as I planned? I just feel like I really need to do this I need the money to send to my little brothers to make sure there takein care of and that I get an education, another decision I face is I feel like Im abandoning my brothers when Im just trying to make a better future for myself and find a home and bring them with me just to end everyones pain. What should I do?
Life is so rough on me right now I want to end it all sometimes but I think of my little brothers and remind myself that there is always someone who has it worse than me, But come on do I deserve all of this?
Best answer:
Answer by Yolanda Orellana
Be normal