I’m Not on Drugs, So What Is It?

Question by Dednyz: I’m not on drugs, so what is it?
I don’t use any drug. Well, except for occasional caffeine and a little diphenydramine (sleeping pills).

Lately people have been accusing me of heroin use.
I can understand why, but it’s really getting old.
I’m to the point of getting worried, I hope some one can help.
I’ve seen multiple doctors in my town, and they just tell me I have the “flu”. A flu doesn’t last 11 months!

Physical changes:
I used to have olive skin, it’s now very discolored.
My eyes flicker.
I have creepy dark circles all around my eyes.

Movement changes:
My eyes close without me closing them, so I run into shit.
My head hangs and lifts.
I’m a lot slower than I used to be.
I twitch and shake.
My eyes run like a waterfall.

Behavior Changes:
I hate being around others lately.
I feel like shit, all the time.
My insomnia is even worse.
I’ve been fainting.
I easily fall into depression.
I offend my friends without knowing why.
I catch myself being scared to death, with no reason.
It’s not anxiety, its just fear.

I’ve tried seeing a shrink, but they just pretend I am on drugs.
They pull shit like “Ok, I believe you, but there are places you can go to for substance abuse.” As if I’m that fucking stupid.

Well, at least I don’t have any weight change.
I wish people would just believe me.
I don’t steal, I don’t sell shit or blow my money.
I still work and go to school.

I really want help, but people just pull that drug shit on me and blow off any other explanations.

Has anyone else experienced this?

Best answer:

Answer by damon
working and going to school may be running your energy down. Maybe you just need some rest. You hate to be with others, you say. I get that way also when I’m stressed. Going to scholl and working is stressful. I need time to be alone sometimes also when I’m feeling overwhelmed by all the responsibilities of school and work along with so many other things that need tended to.
Yes, I have and continue to experience this. Going to school is a lot of work as is work. If you were on heroin, you would know it obviously. No one knows you better than you yourself knows you. You know yourself and what you do better than the shrink does.
Your eyesclosing, your nodding head, and slowness sounds like tiredness to me. Could be just sleep deprivation and worry. Juggling all your responsibilities is stressful.

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