Is There Somewhere I Can Go for Guidance (Kind of Long)?

Question by Friend: Is there somewhere I can go for guidance (Kind of long)?
Ok, I know you’re probably going to say “guidance counselor” or something like that, but I think I need a little more.

Here’s the situation:

I’m 17. I wouldn’t say that I’m a drug addict, but I do have some things that I depend on still. I’d say that when I was about 14, I began to smoke pot with a couple friends and then things escalated from there. I got into more harder drugs and was eventually locked up. The whole me being in and out of the juvenile detention facility thing lasted about 2 years, and then I finally had enough. I stopped using all “drugs”, but I became fond of sleeping pills. The sleeping pills are the only thing that I still do, and I’ve cut down on them A LOT! At one point I was up too 12 maximum strength sleeping pills a night, and then sometimes I would take more after that AFTER the sleepiness high would go away. I quit for awhile, but I managed to get back on them and still am.

As far as my schooling goes, I really fucked up bad. I’ve never really had any guidance in my life (I’ll talk about that next), I’ve just kind of been floatin through life doing whatever came at me. I think about in 7th grade I started to drop out of school. I mean, I just didn’t see the point in it; everybody was getting good grades and I was just having fun. Friends just meant more to me at the time. I guess because I didn’t have any guidence, or I didn’t know what I was doing with my life. I got a 0.0 gpa through out my 7-9th grade years, got held back in 9th cus I was locked up, and then switched to a charter school. I’m doing ok in charter – cought up a little, but I’m still not motivated or into it. I’m just kind of lost right now.

My parents are a different story. I was never abused or anything; maybe a little from my dad when I was younger – he was an alcoholic, but he never really did anything too violent. I was always realy close to my mom, and I was pretty much raised by her. She ended up becomming a best friend instead of a parent, and I think that kind of screwed up my direction in life; I don’t want to blame anyone for my actions though. She use to let me stay home from school; when I got F’s, it was no big problem; She use to give me money for drugs, and cigs. You know, it was just like she was feeding me to rock bottom even though I wasn’t there yet. I know it’s not completely her fault because we shared more of a friendship instead of a mother-son relationship, but I just feel she aided my downfall. Now it feels like I’m living with two friends (my parents – who were never strict), and I’ve never had a chance at direction, or been pushed.

My life as of now:

After I got out from being locked up about two years ago I became a recluse for the most part. I didn’t go out because I didn’t want to see my friends who got me in trouble anymore. It’s gotten pretty bad though; I haven’t left my house in about 2-3 months. I guess you could say that I’m just embarrassed of myself, as silly as that sounds. I mean, I’m supposed to graduate high school this year, but I’m grades behind. I don’t have ANY friends anymore, what so ever. I’m extremely pale and constantly thinking about how I look. I’m constantly worried that I’m going to run into my old friends and they’re going to see how bad I’ve gotten – some of them I’m afraid of seeing that I’m still a loser… I can’t get motivated in school because I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I can’t make plans for the future because I can’t even figure out what to do this day or the next.

My question is: Is there some where I can go for guidance? I’m 17, and completely lost. It’s more than just a guidance for school, it’s a guidance for life pretty much. I don’t want someone to tell me how to live my life, but I want someone to help me find meaning, or direction. Where can I go? – if you know of some place.

Best answer:

Answer by dray8880
I don’t know if you’ve ever been or want to go back, but i was suggest finding a church. thats somewhere you can always go and God will never turn his back on you and through a relationship with him you will find direction for your life. church youth groups is how i got involved, ill admit at first i just went for the girls but God kept me there and i made tons of friends after youth group events and things like that, but he will give you guidance whenever you need it no matter how messed up you think your life is. like i said i dont know if you are the religious type and im certainly not trying to preach to you, but its something to think about and if you dont wanna go, just try praying, just talk to God like you were talking to anyone and he will guide you if you seek him out. Read this verse, it was made for your situation: Proverbs 3:5-6, God bless and i will pray for you and your situation!

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