My Depression Is Coming Back? :(?

Question by Barbie_hates_pinkx: My depression is coming back? :(?
Okay so im 18 and when I started to develop depression when I was 15. I have attempted to kill myself many times, I thought about suicide so much that any little bad thing that happend to me it was like a light switch went off in my head, I would come up with a plan on how to end my life. well my sophmore year I started using drugs, and last march I started using meth. I got addicted to it. So theres two major problems.

This past june I got sent to rehab so depression and the use of drugs I was in there till october. When I got out I was back to normal, happy & sober. But for the past two weeks y urges to cut and thoughts to kill myself are coming back and my cravings for drugs are coming back also, just the other day a picture of cocaine popped up in my head and my mouth started to water.

I mean im getting depressed all over again. I dont want to fall apart again this time. I came out of that rehab place making damn sure I live my life right this time.

what do I do?
Also I tried looking for NA meetings but there is none in or near my area
on another note, I have seen 3 different psychiatrist not including the ones in rehab. and I have been to 2 other facilitys for depression. I just dont want to put my family back through all that again.

I feel like a nousince.

Best answer:

Answer by Michael Jackson
you’ll get through it dont worry ppl say if u are depressed u gain weakness, thts a lie when u are depressed, you are tired of being strong.

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