Please, I Don’t Know What to Do?

Question by batman.: please, i don’t know what to do?
i really don’t know what to think anymore. it seems as though my life will not get any better, i won’t get any ihappier, and i’ll be stuck the way i am forever. i have constant anxiety about everything, and i can never seem to find time to relax. i’m not on any meds for it and i don’t go to therapy because my parents honestly can’t afford that right now. and i’m highly considering going back to doing drugs. i stopped last year, but that was honestly the only way i could relax, and i really miss that feeling. i know i’m depressed, it’s more like clinical depression, because i’m not usually sad around my friends. but everywhere else i feel sad, unhappy, and down. most of my depression and unhappiness comes from constant anxiety, it’s beginning to control my life. it makes me feel bad because i know that there are people out there who have it much worse than me, but i don’t know how to control the way i feel. i can’t just tell myself to be happy or positive, because it’s just not that easy. i’ve also been struggling with weight issues, and i’ve become obsessed with my body image. i feel the need to keep losing weight, even though i’m at a normal weight now. i’ve been eating less, and i’m worried that this might turn into an actual eating disorder. before this month, i hadn’t cut for seven and a half months. but then i started to again, and now it’s like i can’t stop. i don’t want to cut anymore, i just don’t know how to. i think i also might have ocd, because i’m constantly rearranging things to be a certain way, because it doesn’t feel right. sometimes i’ll literally spend five minutes putting something a certain way, because i feel that if i don’t, something bad will happen. i know, it’s weird.

all of these things have caused me to struggle in school, and my grades are suffering. my parents constantly nag me about my grades, because it’s not that i’m not smart, but i just don’t really try as hard as i should. but to be honest, i don’t really have motivation to try, i’m not sure why. can anybody relate to this? or just any general advice? and please no rude comments, i just can’t take that right now.

Best answer:

Answer by K
That sounds like you have depression and an anxiety disorder. Both of those scientists believe are caused by a lack of seretonin in the brain. Antidepressants can greatly reduce the negative emotions you feel. DO NOT go back to drugs because they will likely worsen your symptoms when the drug wears off. Use the money you would spend on drugs to visit a doctor. You definetly have a problem, but anxiety and depression aren’t uncommon and they can be treated.
As someone who experiences those symptoms too, let me tell you that it’s okay. Visit your doctor, and if you want, try closing your eyes and taking deep breaths. If you believe in God, then prayer might help you calm down.

Answer by Gator.popz
Just reading the word “depression” in your question made me remember the horrible depression I went through. Though it seems to me, like most people on this planet, you have lots of problems in your life, you still could have depression regardless of whether or not you had those problems, so talk to someone you trust perhaps a teacher etc. since your parents don’t give me the impression that their that supportive of you. HOWEVER CALL 911 IMMEDIATELY or a suicide hotline if your considering hurting yourself or killing yourself. Anti-depressants at your doctors discretion may be the answer, until the day I die I will continue to tell people who ask about my depression I once faced, that my anti-depressants saved my life literally.

Below I’ve included in the source section some sources that may help you. Thank you and God bless, may you find a cure ASAP so you may live a life of enjoyment. NOTE: MY ADVICE AND THE LINKS BELOW OF COURSE DO NOT SUBSTITUTE DOCTOR ADVICE BUT RATHER HELP