Q&A: Rejection Infront of Everyone in School Which Sparked Severe Form of My Dysthymic Disorder?

Question by Sdfbgasg Ibnsdgib: Rejection infront of everyone in school Which sparked severe form of my Dysthymic Disorder?
(SORRY THIS IS LONG!! :( )

(Dysthymic Disorder is a chronic condition characterized by depressive symptoms that occur for most of the day, more days than not, for at least 2 years. In children, the mood may be irritable rather than depressed, and the required minimum duration is only 1 year. During this 2-year period (1 year for children or adolescents), any symptom-free interval can not last longer than 2 months. By definition, this diagnosis is not made if there are any Hypomanic, Manic or Mixed Episodes. This disorder’s depressive symptoms are not due to a medical condition, medication, illegal drug, or Psychotic Disorder. In the first 2 years of this disorder, if the depressive symptoms intensify to meet the full criteria for a Major Depressive Episode; the diagnosis would be changed to Major Depressive Disorder. It is common for an individual to have 2 or more years of Dysthymic Disorder, then later develop a Major Depressive Episode. In such cases (“double depression”), both Major Depressive Disorder and Dysthymic Disorder are diagnosed. Once the Major Depressive Episode disappears, but the dysthymic symptoms persist, only Dysthymic Disorder is diagnosed.) for those of you who dont know what it is, this was brought on by the death of my mom and later caused me to become a silent / lone wolf kind of teenager (17 right now), the girl that led me on basically was exactly like me except for parental death.. she was quiet a good girl, respectful nice cute everything that ive been lookin for.. for a while when ever i thought about her or even saw her it felt like fate but when i asked her out via note, she basically said she has her eyes on someone else idk if this is her way of telling me she doesnt like me she only was leading me on or if she didnt want to say yes infront of her friends since shes popular and im not really popular (only popular because of my last name/brothers/how i was like b4 my mom died)when she rejected me everyone of the popular guys and girls laughed and looked at me like they wanted to hurt me this basically made me put my head down turn my soldier mode on and basically give who ever looked at me the “you fucking come near me ill kill u in a matter of seconds” look, ever since that happened i stopped working out again had increased suicidal thoughts hell after 5 yrs i actually tried to kill myself atleast 4 or 5 times in the passed 2 weeks because this disorder and realization has basically made me realize ive become a loser no one wants to be my friend or even hang out on weekends. my best / only friend which i dont consider a friend anymore is wasting his life basically killing himself over World of Warcraft so i stopped hanging out with him cause it just hurts to much to even just watch him play that.. which thats all i end up doing when i go over his house anyway.. the 2 things that have kept my suicide at bay is the hope that she was just scared to answer infront of her friends and that im joining the military out of just shear hope that im atleast needed there. (hrm.. so much for “a little more detail huh?)

Best answer:

Answer by Jared T
God will always be there for us if we let him. Jesus is the way. If it’s ok with you could i speak to you one on one about your problems. Just click on my name and email me.

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