Q&A: What Has Been Wrong With Me for Almost a Decade? Rare and Intricate Case.?

Question by Petey A: What has been wrong with me for almost a decade? Rare and intricate case.?
Hi. Im posting here because i’m desperate for an answer and many doctors failed to provide it. if someone with knowledge could read it all and leave your opinion i’d be forever grateful.

Long story short:
Im male, 22yo.

Nothing considered a serious disease had ever been wrong with me since birth and i was healthy has anyone can ever ask to be.(i suffer from moderate migrains since a child and had my amygdales removed, nothing else)

When i was around 14yo i consumed a FEW times (3/4!) cannabis. Everything changed not temporarily, permanently: somehow this hit my brain in a unique way and in a very short time it’s easier to say what didn’t change (to something abnormaly wrong) than what remained the same.

My semantic memory was affected to a way the world never felt the same. The simple knowledge of how we see our life and the world surrounding us was changed so deeply at the moment i still manage to function but with extreme effort only. The best word i find to describe this is like imagine going partially senile, not insane but senile. But i’m just getting started.
All my senses were affected in a weird way, i feel “weird” inside my body, voices sounded constantly slight different, light/dark contrasts in my vision we also affected making my vision somehow abnormal too.
All this never get’s better or worst it’s static. This is what my permanent state is, the state i was at the time i consumed the drugs was almost an apathic senility. I never did drugs or even alcohol again.

Tests were ran (EEG and Magnetic resonance) and found nothing. This is all too unreal and that’s when some doctor decided it probably wasn’t and all this was a psychose or some sort of mental illness effect (schizophrenia etc).
I knew it wasn’t, but the other diagnosis seemed to be “something went wrong in your brain, there’s no medical knowledge enough to understand or treat this” I was too young and scared so, believing there was no hope, i quit school and a kinda still “normal” life i tried to live and isolated myself.

For some years i just tried to forget everything didn’t leave home much and kept myself distracted. Around 2005 the most unexplainable thing in all this case happened, it can be the piece that links it all or what else i don’t know: I was eating and piercing pain striked my throat, not too deep. nothing that horrible in pain measure tho, so i just assumed something sharp scratched there. The thing is the next second i know i feel horribly worst of ALL the symptoms initially focusing on the head ones(state of awareness in the world, semantic memory). The pain of whatever it was lasted around 3 days and was gone. The state i was left in was well if i was already unhealthy before this after it just fell appart. I mostly stopped eating, i was and am already so disconnected from what i know the world to be i knew if this happened again i’d be senile.

I was comitted to a Psychiatry for “heavy depression” and medicated with anti-depressives. I got slightly better at least i could live but nothing of the root problem here was being dealt with, i just didn’t find a way to. Other issue is once associated with Psychic problems what doctor will hear this unbelievable story without putting you on anti psychotic pills.

Forwarding the story to present time, with huge effort and strengh i’ve gotten better as dealing with life, i’m still deficient or abnormal on the inside despite looking normal. My psychiatrist believes my story enough to accept i didn’t imagine my story and something serious happened to me but doesn’t know what to do.

Meanwhile i’ve lost almost a decade of my life in pain and suffer, i’ve become dependent on many pills(anti-depressives, benzodiazepines) and has i mentioned from a healthy kid with his life ahead of him i’ve become a abnormal thing.
Now that i feel i’ve assembled the conditions necessary to face what destroyed my life with all i’ve got i’ll try, and it has to be an explanation and the pieces must fit somehow. if not well, i tried eh.

thanks
I’m reporting has abuse ppl promoting crappy medicine.
Also if you do not have a formation in medicine please don’t post here, there’s nothing you can do for me. sorry…
Zach, this is extremely hard to explain.
What i meant is what went wrong and stayed with me when i did drugs, that same thing got WORST with a throat pain from a piece of food.
Don’t know what else to say, nothing in my case makes sense there must be a link

Best answer:

Answer by Zach
All I know is “The thing is the next second i know i feel horribly worst of ALL the symptoms initially focusing on the head ones(state of awareness in the world, semantic memory)” made NO SENSE at all.

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