Should I Ask to Call My Mom?

Published June 3, 2010

i won’t type out the whole thing but you can read my last question if you want to know, i’d like some answers on that.
the basics are
i did drugs.
i got arrested.
i went to crazy house, still used, then jail then house arrest then rehab…
i have not used for 5&a half months.
my parents have custitdy to my dads parents when i got out of rehab about a month and a half ago.
grandparents and me got in a fight (i asked to call my parents during the fight but they wouldnt let me)
we fought because i fell asleep with my contacts in and clothes on.
and my grandma wanted to make a checklist for before bed and i though that was dumb.
and the new rules are
get up at 9 go to bed at 11 (i do online school so yeah)
no phone
no myspace
follow all house rules

i do not know anyone here in texas because ive lived in ohio most my life i also lived in illionis for a good amount of time and the other places i lived i was young

and i’m really upset and im pretty sure my dads given up on me but i wanna see if my mom has.

and you know i feel awful…
because i always wanted my parents to give up on me, right? but i wanted it to be like i could do whatever but they do give up on me and they send me away and its awful :(
i guess its ironic or something.